The side track

2009-12-08T12:05:00.002+08:00

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. it feels like love is like a death sentence, a torment, mental suffocation, emotional breakdown. love can just bring you down, totally that you feel low of yourself. Rejection, yes it feels like a shot in the heart, it just kills ur normal self, u become a different person, not the usual self, depression state. now i feel physical torture is way better then mental torture. and mental torture is way better than emotional torture.

i did what was supposed to be done, and what most people would do. the main thing i seek is closure, and the road to it would definitely be rocky, nevertheless is about just moving on. It's not a dead end yet, treat it like a detour, the road still continues on. No regrets on that.

yet, it still hurts alot, and the worst thing is to control it within. i cant be looking like a freaking depressing unsound human being going around looking like emily, right. so yea, the next time i think my heart will open up again, guess it would be not so soon. i taught i couldn't fall in love, but i just did, it was the first, and yes, the first cut is always the deepest.

I'm trying to avoid paranoia, depression and a raging temper.

2009-08-19T21:07:00.001+08:00

I'm neither here nor there. I never had achieved anything great in life. I'm just a total bummer who just seeks all round enjoyment. All of a sudden it just strike me, I'm worried that i have to face the consequences later on in future. That's the price i have to pay for beings such an arse lazing around this past lifetime of mine. Friends around me are at least ding something with their life, they have set goals and are determined to achieve it. For me, it's more of like living on a day to day basis. Sometimes we just don't realise our talents, but the ironic thing is that other people does and they see that we have the potential. The problem always lies in the person themselves. Guess it's about time that i should take life more seriously and set goals that i want to achieve, its not just about the talking, its the process and executing it. Najib wants to be somebody of high recognition in future, but the thing that is hindering me is laziness, procastination, stubborness, and that can't be bothered attitude. It would be more nicer to see the antonyms of this words instead, hopefully in future.

2009-08-14T14:36:00.003+08:00

In an urgent need to shift to eating healthy food. From what i believe, healthy food is not delicious, but unhealthy food is always delicious. Isn't that true. Oh well, I'm now force into this healthy diet thingy, so i just gotta bare with it for the time being.

2009-08-14T10:59:00.002+08:00

Call me image conscious, I wont deny that. It's affecting me really badly, i feel so miserable, yes and yesterday i felt like crying. Something really bad happen to my face. I was using this blackhead removal cream, it was really very strong, and so yea, my skin couldnt take it. Now my cheeks look like i just went for botox, it feels very tight and dry, and there are alot of red dots around it. How not to feel miserable, worst thing the doctor say there would be a pimple outbreak after this, and it would be for 2 months. that's the only way out to get cured. Hearing the verdict from the doctor was really heartbreaking, it sounds very drama, but since it was the first time, i really felt so miserable and down about it. Next, i'm starting to get irritated by my hair, its getthing very long and thick, and if i dun take good care of it, i will just look like a messy haggard looking guy. So what are the options, cut my hair short like the good old time, or prolly should i consider dreadlocks or braids. Jus hope things will get better after this, so that I wont get so paranoid about it. Ugly Betty.

2009-08-07T12:41:00.002+08:00

What's your say about P.D.A? For me, its an insult to singles, so i think they should go get a room and not showcase their love to others.
What's your say on public sex? For me, its wild, daring, dangerously hot. moving away from the conventional way of having sex. the bed is just getting boring. guess people are just getting too comfortable with their surroundings. I did saw a couple having public sex once, at taka, and the most surprising things is that they look like geeks, ahuh, so not only bad boys and wild gurls engaged in this kinda of activities.

No time for loved ones.
Overtime is easy shit.
A workaholic.

2009-08-06T12:06:00.002+08:00

Im not a morning person, i just look like a zombie and i don't observe the people around me. A stranger told me this, that i have this sad and tired natural looking face, especially in the morning. Since its natural, I cant help it, i tried to look like fresh, but the freshness seems to be depleted by the tiredness.

I must say i like wearing formal clothings. prolly for a change, lets move to wearing more pants and khaki with shirts and vest. the formal look gives me a boost of confidence, and yea looking presentble is important, IMAGE. I f i got all the money in the world, i would spend it on clothes, go out and try more adventorous sports, like diving or skydive. regu, if i got the money, i will definitely join u diving next year. the fact is, everything is all about money.

Birthday are an awesome occasion, but if your're the one planning for it, not fun at all. Especially if that someone is like the high-status conscious posh fren, headache. to add to the problem the budget constraint. Again, if i would have all that money in the world, i would throw a lavish party for you. but its okay, i think the company is more important. Najib loves his friends.

Some people associate workaholic to having no life. I beg to differ. We have a life, because we know how to juggle our responsibilities and commitments yet not jeopardising any aspects of our lifes.

I think you really need to put your problems aside, dun let it ruin ur life. trust me, you wouldnt want to be in that position.

2009-08-03T16:09:00.004+08:00

Why am I not attached?

Is it because its just not the time yet

or is it because im shy to make the first move

or is it because i just leave it to fate

or is it because i don't have the guts

or is it because i'm not charismatic or attractive

or is it because i look very unapproachable

or is it because i people think i'm very stuck up

or is it because i'm not ready to be in a relationship

or is it because i am just sick and tired of love

or is it because sex is more satisfying than love

or is it because my other commitments are too much for me to handle

or is it because luck is not on me

or is it because i'm just being paranoid

or is it because i need cupid's help

or is it because i have an issue with myself

or is it because i just have too many OR and BECAUSE

I really have an issue with myself. Valentine, come safe me!!!!!

2009-07-31T14:51:00.002+08:00

In fashion, be somebody, not a wannabee.

Twitter is addictive, blogger is becoming old skool.

ts seems that module this week has alot of relations to contract law. thats not fun at all. Gonna start work this sunday at ION, hopefully it will be fun and that i won't have a hard time. I want to feel loved. awww. paiseh.

Dont always feel that problems are crushing your life, because if thats what you think, then it will be.

2009-07-28T23:44:00.002+08:00

The art of living lies less in eliminating our troubles than in growing with them.

When you can't solve the problem, manage it.

The best way out of a problem is through it.

2009-07-16T22:43:00.003+08:00

Finally, i got myself a new phone, a flip one, hopefully it doesn't break apart. nonetheless, i am still feeling low because its been difficult getting employed. Just sick and tired of going for interviews, and yea, i always get this stupid question from the interviewers, "are you a foreigner". Do i look like an import human being?????

trying to play around with the new phone, i wont deny that im a IT noob, because i dun even know how to switch on the phone, needed the guide book for help. How i wish i had a sugarmommy who would just pamper me but dun ask for special services. ok, i'm getting desperate here. Hopefully some kind soul would offer me a job.

I want to try to love, but i just don't dare to do it.

life can be fuck up a times, but just pretend that its nothing
sometimes its good to be living in denial, you don't drive urself crazy.

2009-07-15T01:05:00.006+08:00

Laptop brokedown, so didn't had the mood to attend class. It was just a not needed help in overcoming the monday blues. Guess what, sunday nite, IM with KNAA and ask her if she wanted to ditch school. Her answer is always YES, she never object against skipping school. It's been a very long time since we both ditch school together, because we are no longer in the same class, sad huh, i guess they have their reasons for not putting us together. Running out of choices on where to go, Singapore does not have much awesome places to chill. We decided to look beyong the normal geographical status, and yea, we decided to go to the other side of causeway, J.B.

Before that, headed to school first to get my lappy repaired. I think my lappy reaching its lifespan, its always down. Trip to JB was fuckin damn long. It was a medain ride from wldns checkpoint to the other checkpoint. The malaysian customs was like wow, the interior was impressive than terminal 3, but but the road leading to it is totally long and curvy because there were so many turns before we actually reach there. There are some architecture problems that they need to look into especially the accessibility. Felt rich for a while in JB, it's like all of a sudden your money increase by 2 times. heh. Ate at kenny rogers followed by a movie, public enemy which was like too long winded for me to absorbed the story line. Next time, we shall explore JB deeper.

2009-07-14T10:56:00.002+08:00

Life is like the sea,
We don't know where it ends.
If were to go deeper,
It would be too late for us to turn back,
drowning ourselves to death.

I have made up my mind,
I have to forgo all the outcoming plans
I just need to get things right, before i proceed,
Because i just don't want things to get complicated.

The withdrawal syndrome.

2009-07-10T12:15:00.004+08:00

It's freezing cold in class and it's really tempting me to take a short nap.

I have yet to pay attention in class today, just not in a mood.

Lesson is about risk mgmt, and it's on bomb threat evacuation plans

Hopefully there's a real bomb threat right now

So i can go home.

2months coming and i have yet to get a job.

Getting employed is a must for me.

Otherwise i will drown myself dying in debt

I don't want that to happen.

God, help me please, I know i have done alot of sins, forgive me for that.

So look at life through the windshield, not the rear-view mirror.

2009-07-08T00:02:00.002+08:00

I feel the adrenaline pumping in my brain. Ever felt that you have too much going through your mind, where you don't even know where to start. That feeling isn't nice at all. So here I am trying to pretend that nothing happened, but deep down, reality is telling me to face the facts. It's quite daunting especially when you feel so helpless, trying to keep calm, showing a strong composure infront of your friends, but sadly its all superficial.

What would be like if your life was being replicate into stage art, where there would be audiences attending the show. I want my life story to be an eye-opener, making a positve impact on every single audience. I believe that life's too short, so don't make your problems make your life shorter.

2009-07-06T15:17:00.002+08:00

Don't you feel that it sucks when you are force to do things.
Come on, each individual has their choices and we view things differently
So, don't try grooming people into robots
Because we robots control ourselves
Not you.

2009-07-03T00:03:00.002+08:00

Prison break - from school.
Measures taken are of no concrete reasons
Instead of making us feel comfortable & safe during this situation
You are making us feel like jail birds waiting to get release for feeding time & home.
I don't abide by this nonsensical measures implemented.
They should have a green ribbon project for rp students soon.

2009-07-02T23:49:00.002+08:00

Those who kiss their partner goodbye each morning live five years longer than those who don’t.

Kissing is great for self-esteem. It makes you feel appreciated and helps your state of mind.

Kissing burns calories, 2-3 calories a minute and can double your metabolic rate.

Kissing is a known stress-reliever.

Passionate kissing relieves tension, reduces negative energy and produces a sense of well being, lowering your cortisol ‘stress’ hormone.

Kissing uses 30 facial muscles and it helps keep the facial muscles tight, preventing baggy cheeks!

The tension in the muscles caused by a passionate kiss helps smooth the skin and increases the circulation.

Kissing is good for the heart, as it creates an adrenaline which causes your heart to pump more blood around your body.

Frequent kissing has scientifically been proven to stabilize cardiovascular activity, decrease blood pressure and cholesterol.

Those who kiss quite frequently are less likely to suffer from stomach, bladder and blood infections.

During a kiss, natural antibiotics are secreted in the saliva. Also, the saliva contains a type of anesthetic that helps relieve pain.

Kissing reduces anxiety and stops the 'noise' in your mind. It increases the levels of oxytocin, an extremely calming hormone that produces a feeling of peace.

Let's embrace love & start kissing more. I posted this because i'm very impressed with the health benefits of kissing.

2009-07-02T00:52:00.002+08:00

Sadly, a 24 year old fucker in this house, acting like the most fillial and saint son in this household, does not know how to get a life. My second brother is leading his own independent life, but the mr saint seems to be hanging on to the house. Seriously, go fucking hell get your own house, i need some privacy and personal space in that room. Stop putting up a mask, no more charles play, the truth would be reveal soon, and don't ever dream that you gonna get this house, please have some shame damn it.

2009-07-01T23:59:00.002+08:00

Let's say i kinda like the whole feeling today. It's like you feel rejuvenated all of a sudden. Not to forget, lots of eyecandy too, that's more like it. Bet sher would be smiling reading this rite now. Finally, justice is being shown, and to that incompetent boss, just be prepared to get screwed by the big boss, because najib gonna send you a lovey dovey letter. Be delicate with that letter, because now i'm the superior one, i really hope that fucking boss will feel what's fuck up treatment is like. Satisfaction at it's best. Compensate me, and i hope to ruin your career, like you did to the rest. So before you think you can meddle around with me, think twice, kids nowadays are not as dumb and gullible, guess our level fo mentality is wiser than yours, sadly.

2009-06-30T00:35:00.003+08:00

There is no way that you can evade what life has in store for you.

The new addiction in music, R.E.M, loosing my religion, an awesome retrospect.
Also listen to Taveres - Heaven must be missing an angel.
Let's bring back the disco days. bell-bottom, with tight fitting disco shirts, hair gel up like cement being put on your head, babes with loud colours dresses, the geeky looks. Bring me back to the 80's.
the 90's were great too, remember spice girls backstreet boys days. I want to be a child and not grow up.

2009-06-29T15:16:00.002+08:00

Let's just say that I once dated this someone, we were together, then we were not. Okay. We didnt contact for a very long time. Then, that person text me up, armoured with piles of excuses saying that she was just too caught up with so much stuff. Stop button. I guess some people are just using others, treating people cheaply, like spare tyres, or like a standby dummie. Spare a thought for others, because if you think you can play it on others, it can also be reversible. Babe, don't bother about that jerk, he's not worth anything in your life.

It's getting annoying in school when retard students start whining so much about the flu. There's no need to overreact in the first place, not as if we are facing a disease mutation that would turn us into creatures. So, stop blaming the school, they have their reasons for implenting certain measures.

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel. The love confession.

2009-06-28T23:29:00.002+08:00

Reading on fb and blogs, some kids really thinks that the flu pandemic is like a joke. They wish to get a holiday from it by wishing that pandemic gets worst. To those dummies, its not a holiday that you get, its called quarantine. It specifically means to your grounded at home for a week. Wish for that go ahead.

Do you feel the pressure and the need when you see your friends all attached. Then you start telling yourself why are you still single. Then you will start feeling miserable and tell yourself that you are missing out on something big. You feel that you are lack of being love, then you envy your friends when they behave intimately together. Bottomline, who doesn't want to be in love, with the right one. Time will come, be patient, there's no need a rush for it. When you're single, you mingle, and the fun comes. I want more disco shirts.

2009-06-28T02:21:00.002+08:00

My imperfection would be your perfection, Your imperfection would be my perfection.

It seems that looks has become the superior factor in today's world. I despise people calling someone else ugly, fat, disgusting, horrible or whatever insultive words that can come out from their mouth. Look at yourself first, if your like not even good looking, who the fuck are you to judge others and give those unrequired comments. Even if your hot, you don't even have the right to say that. Seriously, when you open your mouth and criticized someone, look at yourself first thoroughly. Even though you look flawless outside, what's the point when your inner beauty is horrible. Fuck to those bitches who commented on my friend, look at yourself into the mirror first before you comment on others, hopefully the mirror doesn't crack.

2009-06-21T01:30:00.002+08:00

Talk about going for holidays, fucking hell pay me back my money you fucker. Father's day, it's not in my calendar. Mother's day, that more worst, it never even existed in my calendar. Wtf, so now i have to pay for my own miscelleneous fees. You fucking shameless sadistic human beings. Seriously, the bitch is driving me nuts, finding trouble in the middle of the night, saying that i was banging the door but actually i was just switching on the lights. She has a issue basically, which is mental.

How najib, what to do now, everything seems to be going wrong. I need a punching bag to release my anger.

2009-06-20T01:21:00.003+08:00

Character or Looks?
Which one would be long lasting?
So what's your definition of first impression?
Is it the character or the looks?

Love or sex?
Which one would be long lasting?
So what's your definition of being in love?
Is it the love or the sex?

2009-06-17T23:00:00.002+08:00

I shall go on an offensive, the bitch thinks she rules, she makes decision. Your not a mother, your're more of like a fucking dictator who supress their kids to that extent that you just don't know where to stop and draw the line. For this past years, I just don't know what's your motive. So you thing i am playing sides, yes i am because i'm mature enough to know whats right, and seriously you made my childhood a dreadful and miserable one. Now, you want to ruin my youth life. You wont fucking go far, trust me. Don't come begging me for help when your old, because you don't deserve any respect or sympathy. Yes, I'm living under your roof now, that won't be for long because when i set free, i'll get even with you. Let you taste your medicine. See how it feels. That bitch really needs harsh treatments, other she wont realise it, like after the men of the house was stricken with kidbey failure, bitch still never learn her lesson.

I'm ashamed to have a mother like you, who cursed and prays for the worst things to happen to me, i'll be patient because i know that your sadistic ideology will hit back on you one day. I dare say that I'm never happy with my life, and that I will only see happiness till i distance myself from this woman.

2009-06-16T22:55:00.002+08:00

I envy the people around me, especially those close ones
because im missing lots of things in life
its not that kind of dream life you expect as a teenager
instead of enjoying my youth, i just can't do much
why, because my responsibility seems to be on par with my parents
because they just shun their responsibilities
thus i have to take on that huge load
seriously, it seems to much for me to handle.
It seems to be a never ending problem.
reaching insanity stage. controlling it

2009-06-15T23:55:00.003+08:00

Been feeling abnormal lately. Don't know whether it is just the time of the month that this feeling starts to just pop out or that i just get easily paranoid. I would just go on a rage at home especially hearing my mom talking, the anger in me just erupts all of a sudden, grasp my hand tight and the feeling of hitting her and ask her to shut up. yea thats the thing, i dunno why i seem to get so tense easily. All of a sudden i feel like shunning away from everyone, is just this out of the blue feeling, its weird seriously. then comes the nights where i will keep on waking up in the middle of my sleep, many times, and i also dunno why. i jus wake up all of a sudden, switch on the light for a few mins and then switch it off and go to bed. usually repeated twice or if im lucky it only happen once. Just a few days back, i dreamt of me dying, left with only a week to live, hopefully its just a dream coz a day later, grandma called me and she was so nice to ask me come over her place as she had cooked for me. Yea, was treated like a prince there, food served with my favourites drinks. i was totally delighted but it make me feel that there was something wrong, prolly im just paranoid. Hopefully im not suffering from any mental distress, but it seems to me that its more like it. Am i just thinking too much, i can't deny that my current state of life is pack with problems that seems to process like a vicious cycle. But to think of it, everyone has problems, its a norm, im just trying to handle mine privately. I'm lost and the feeling right now is like wtf. I need a cure for all this.

2009-06-12T11:18:00.002+08:00

I hate the current situation I'm in. I now totally believe in my instincts. My mind feels like its suffocated, I just don't know where to start. Temper are just running high. I hate people in the house, i hate this fucking situation.

2009-06-09T23:31:00.003+08:00

Marisher gill is suffering from intense obsessive compulsive disorder. Everything must be in tip top condition, and it really make my stay at her house feels like 5 star accommodation. Can't imagine how perfectionist she is, we bought 2 box of pizza's for lunch, and when i only started eating on the second slice, ms gill already started packing up the food into the container, reason, must keep the place in tip top condition. The other hilarious part while she was cooking instant noodle, remember only instant noodle. She start to clean and wipe the whole kitchen like as if she just finished a course meal dinner. Honestly, this house is like a flawless skin, there is no dirt, no dust, no unkept items, everything is all kept and arranged nicely, but its just to neat and proper for me. Oh well, that's the life of ms gill.

Holidays was not spend working, its totally feels weird for me.

Sometimes one wish that they can get whatever they dream of having
but sometimes one regret of actually having what the dream of having
At this moment of time, i really don't have a sense of direction in my life
On the outside, it always seems ok,
but on the inside, things are just like wires getting tangled up
It's sometimes difficult to bring out from the inside to the outside
Some things are just meant to be kept within
waiting for the right moment when it can be release out.
Set free.

2009-06-04T23:46:00.002+08:00

It's like a vicious cycle, and this is one of those meanness thing that ever happen. So you think your're the boss and that you have every legitimate rights to do whatever you want, we shall see then. You make people loose their jobs, your turn will come soon too, don't worry. I'm feeling totally pissed right now. I'll hit you back with vengeance, because you brought me into a situation that I never wanted nor expected to be in.

2009-06-02T14:09:00.001+08:00

True leaders don't major on the minor, they major on the major.

2009-05-31T23:38:00.002+08:00

Got to stop being a bummer, should start doing something more fruitful. After yrs of not joining the guys for fishing, today was the second time i joined them. Frankly speaking, fishing is quite boring because its more like a stationery hobby where you just laze around waiting for the fish to get hook to your bait. Maybe i just don't appreciate the art of fishing, but the company was great, so it dosen't matter. Set my plan to clean up the room this hols, and its by stages because i know that I won't be able to get it done within one day. Reason, procastination. Wouldn't it be great to have someone help you clean your room. Looking for slaves or maid out there, any willing party?

2009-05-30T23:37:00.003+08:00

Probably some people just go up the ranks through bootlicking, pussy sucking, balls carrying or whatever shit that help them make their way up the hierarchy. No wonder they turn out to be useless piece of yaya so called "managers", but the actual fact is that they don't even know the basics of managment skills. I'm fucking pissed with the current situation at work. Was supposed to work today, but an unprecedented event happened in which the sadistic incorrigible bitch operations manager forgot to renew my pass. So I made a called to that inexperienced store manager that i couldnt enter transit, he's reply was "How ah??????". He just triggered my temper, and so i started giving him a piece of my mind. You fucking hell ask me to come down to work ealry in the morning and here i am, can't even enter transit. Instead of apologising and giving me a solution, you ask me what to do. So whats the damn purpose of you being a store manager, what, everytime go for meetings for whatever reason like as if ur running all shop in the airport, KNN ah, really bodoh to the maximum. Put down the phone and tried calling the operations manager. Seriously I don't know how the hell this fiendish bitch got the position, she didnt pick up my calls and neither did she return my calls. Simply no basic respect at all. The least you two moron could do was to apologise and updating me. Guess what, later in the day she told a colleague of mind to tell me that I would not need to come to work tomolo. Exemplary example of a human being who's brain is positioned at the ass. Can't she take the initiative to tell me personally, why feel your at wrong? Gonna get even with you and knock some senses into your disfunctional brain.

2009-05-29T13:32:00.003+08:00

It feels that there is something missing in my life, but i yet to figure out what is it actually.

I want to learn the guitar, coz i feel that music is one of the best way to express your feelings and thoughts. I really miss literature lesson, shakespeare, those character analysis, the love triangle, yea music be the food of love. Guess literature has taught me alot, especially in understanding people better.

Btw, anyone up for sing dollar musical at esplanade this july? It's gonna be hilarious trust me.

2009-05-28T21:53:00.003+08:00

I was surprised when my dad asked me if i wanted to continue studying after poly. But if i intend to study after ns, i will pay it for myself, why because i dun want him to brood bout things and use it as his case that he's supporting me and that i must listen to his decisions and perspective. Nope, I've learnt my lesson, because if it's my money, no one can say anything, so finally you see that this son of urs is not that useless as you taught he was last time. Oh well, guess you should stop getting psycho by that bitch.

2009-05-25T23:16:00.001+08:00

I'm becoming a slave for money
Do you feel the same too?

2009-05-22T15:07:00.001+08:00

The cost of love is not as important as the value

2009-05-22T00:02:00.002+08:00

Insults should be taken as a motivation
Take it as a challenge
Not as something demoralizing
Dun let this people overshadow you
Cause only you can better yourself
It's all about self-belief.

Just got the first warning letter from school for this semester
Now it's a little bit different, they only send it to the parents
Worst they state the fucking times you skipped
Guess my dad gave up hope on me already
That is why there is no post-it stickers on my room door.

2009-05-21T11:50:00.002+08:00

This flu is such a pain. It felt like Sars period while I was at the clinic, temperature taking, face mask and all those sick faces. Just the low mood stage at the moment. Just looking foward for the end of the month. Time is really passing by very fast, it's already the 5th week. Hungry.

2009-05-18T12:09:00.002+08:00

Whats the point of having a high standard of living when the quality of life is no where on par.
Toblerone fruit & nut is the new found pleasure.
Mamasan, please dun talk so much, ur class is getting boring,
4th week and 1 empty table. it's a sign.

2009-05-15T15:03:00.002+08:00

Let's have more sessions at changi beach
Cravings for nasi lemak was answered
Yes the changi village one.
Walking by the beach
The swing
The see-saw
The nite sky
The airplane landing
The sound of the waves
A tranquil place for reflections
A calm place to ponder
A romantic place to make love.
Fly me to the moon.

2009-05-14T16:06:00.002+08:00

One just gotta move up the ladder
Because there's no point staying stationery
Backbone cramps is killing me
all thanx to tagging those new products
I enjoy bedtime chats with you
Hopefully you'll find yours and i'll find mine.

2009-05-12T14:37:00.002+08:00

Sometimes we just don't realise our actions. I guess i need to take control of my temper. I apologise for being shrewd. This is like the only place i vent out my anger, I don't like talking things out to people, but sometimes, things just gets out of the way and I don't realise it. I know it hurts you alot, then I'm sorry for it.

You have done alot of things for me, you gave me alot of stuff and i definitely would not want to ruin the bond that we share for 6yrs. Everyone has their flaws, and i admit it that when i always keep things to myself, and when i let it out, unexpected things happen.

2009-05-10T00:58:00.002+08:00

Probably, i need a lifestyle change at this moment of time. Being a homey do help alot in cutting cost though. Babe, it's good to be a perfectionist, it just shows that you are a very neat and organized person, which would show that you carry yourself well! Stick with it, be that lola.

Please move me to Bijoux or Billabong. Discover, really too much stuff to discover.

Let's see who's better yea. The world is just to competitive, not just between businesses & organizations, but also betweem individuals. Stop being jealous and bitchy which in the end, turns you into a hypocrite. Life's too short, make it contented, the positive way.

2009-05-05T23:01:00.002+08:00

I want more public hoildays, yani, lets club more often, we just need some proper air-conditioning, dblo, do something about your air-con please, you don't want your patrons to suffocate and die while dancing. Everyone was like drenched, but some look hot when they are sweating and wet. Not being horny, but there's this sexy look on them. Done with party, it was first day of work on saturday.
I like the flexibility that i can choose my timing. environment slack, but the colleagues, not like those at kingpower. They are not spoilt like us i guess, but anywaes i gotta to adapt to it. I should just be happy that I got the job and its at airport. pay good, werk slack, flexible, perfecto.

Temptation of buying clothes is always there, it's really difficult to have self-control on this. fucking addictive. Still remember those time, me and farhi, we shop like there was no tomorrow, any sale, we will definitely be there. Buying new stuff just makes one happy, you will feel more confident in it, you just feel new and fresh. Oh well, we just need to pamper ourselves, life's to short, so why not, lead a joyful one.

Need to do some trainings because there will be napfa test in 2 weeks time. I dun want to go thru that 13 weeks of physical training in school. Self-training are better.

2009-04-30T15:51:00.002+08:00

I know you are bitching to your friends about me, but nevermind, because my conscious is clear. Oh well, im feeling sky high at the moment, because i finally gonna start work after labour day, at the airport. Another retail job, airport work environment is awesome, you dun face typical, kiasu, acting-rich locals who believes that customer is always right. Pray hard that this job gonna be a permanent part-time job till i graduate.

The world dosen't rotates around you. Things don't evolve around you. Your not the world decision maker. So please, have some flexibility and don't just think and behave from just your perspective. Basically, don't be selfish. Who do you think you are. Tribalspacemen?

2009-04-29T14:31:00.002+08:00

You are just one irrelevant human being
Pliz dun bother me anymore, just leave me alone.
Sometimes I just wished that I didn't had met you
Because things would definitely be better off

Next, don't agree to plans when you can't
When you have no one to look for
You start coming back to the same people
Seriously, fickle minded people just pissed me off

Don't bother, your just insignificant to me.

2009-04-24T16:00:00.002+08:00

Standing stationery at the middle of a four way junction
With no idea of which direction to head to
My source of time killer was my job
And now without a job, there's a big gap in my life
Enjoyment needs to be cut down becoz
I lost my source of income for enjoyment
There's nothing much to be done right
I want to go fish for the right one
Life is not that flawless.

2009-04-14T00:42:00.003+08:00

School gonna start soon, god almighty, i'm not looking foward for it. I dunno why, being in Rp has caused me to hate school. Living in denial since the 1st of april, keep telling myself that this would be a never ending holiday. Just gotta come to terms with it, at least school dosen't start so early and yea, it will be only four days. But I bet that all this new incentives wont help that much. Lets see how it goes.

I need some fats.

Let's go for the average kind
It be more of a long-term prospect
Give it a try.

2009-04-12T03:08:00.002+08:00

You read me well
I'm only left with a week of playtime
Its gonna be weird
the sudden switch of lifestyle from hols to school
oh well, 1/3 more to go
guess it shouldnt be much of a problem

2009-04-06T23:33:00.002+08:00

Weather has been weird lately.
One moment it rains,
Next it would be freaking hot
I miss out on swimming today
thanx to the weather.
i enjoy rains on weekends
not on weekdays
having this weird tendency to shower,
in the middle of the nite.
but the after effect is great.

I think i matured too fast
So isit something positve?
Arrival of the pay cheque tomorrow.
Lets do some proper accounts.

2009-04-04T23:27:00.002+08:00

What other things to think about or look foward too when there is actually nothing coming your way. I just want to be at a quiet enclave, where reflections can take place and where i can keep calm.
I'm just deprived of something.
Lets go fly kite. its really great.
I seem to feel down this few days. Mood is low.
There are things that I wish to say it out
But I don't have the courage to do it so
Those who know, reacts shockingly, comes dissapointment,
and finally acceptance.
Hopefully things will change in a few years time
Let's slowly put all this crap shit to a stop
I want get a jeans from Uniqlo. wait till thurs.

2009-04-04T01:07:00.002+08:00

It seems to me that I can't really adapt to drastic change that fast.
I just got retrenched just last week, the feeling wasn't that great at all.
When it was the last day at work, i felt really really sad, but i just tried controlling it.
The feeling was like facing a break-up, probably I was emotionally attached to work,

Since school gonna start this 20 of the month, let's enjoy first before going back to that monotanous routine.

I want to play hook-up.

2009-03-29T22:01:00.002+08:00

Let's get the record straight, I'm not your alternative neither would I change my perception of you. Actually the more we talk, I seem to get disgust by your contents.

I got a thing for beach party after yesterday experience.

2009-03-27T03:11:00.003+08:00

How I wish I could have my own house, just a small cosy apartment on a high level with a good view. It would definitely be great huh. let's start putting in more money into the CPF.

I cant wait for that animal sharing the same room with me to get out of the house and get his own house. Please dun ever ever thing that by staying here with your unhygienic ethics would let you get hold of the house. Your fucking 25, have a full time job, but apparently still not contributing back to the family. Call yourself a role model son, just stop all your acting coz it wont work that long. Its obvious that you are jealous of us the two younger ones. Just stop having this jealous mentality, trying to be materialistic wont bring you far. Just get out of the house soon, if not, i would be the first one to do so, then you people can leave happily ever after, your faces will be printed on the new "happy family" card game series.

2009-03-20T01:17:00.002+08:00

I didn't know that I need to go through 4 interview for just a part-time job.

WTF, this one not american idol or as if i'm applying for the General Manger post.

Oh well, this duty free company is the direct opposite of kingpower.

1st interview was just to introduce myself

2nd interview would be a phone interview with the same person

3rd and 4th, i dunno with who.

If you only choose people of your kind then go ahead

dun give me stupid excuses like my hair and my dressing

I look appropriate not as if like my hair was in a mess and that i was dressing down

Kumar concert at esplanade was awesome. It was just full of laughter and it was a one "men" show. Impressive and I definitely going for his upcoming show casting him, najip ali and hossan leong, confirm it gonna be hilarious.

2009-03-19T03:18:00.002+08:00

I drink to stay warm,

and to kill selected memories..........

I'm not your spare tyre

It's showtime

I taught I had found the best job ever

In the end something bad has to happen

getting laid off soon

Clock says get a new job

Lepak jobs are hard to come by

KingPower

2009-03-18T02:04:00.002+08:00

I ditch my godsis because of work.

I deeply apologise

damn, I really feel bad

Owe you one

Talking is easy

Commenting is also easy

But if your're the one having to face it

it's not that easy.

2009-03-12T02:06:00.002+08:00

Party is over

I see the walls collapsing

How I wish I could just hybernate myself

and just put an end to all this

what is becoming of me

its hitting critical stage

I'm just deprived of something

which i didn't got throughout this 19yrs.

2009-03-10T23:55:00.002+08:00

My younger years are wasted fulfilling your responsibilities

I hate people who wants to play pretend. I don't have anything to do with you. Play hide and seek. Let's play ignore.

2009-03-08T01:56:00.003+08:00

Once a sadistic bitch, she will always be one. I just curious whether she even have a heart or a mind that is functioning. Same goes for the men that she married with. Wtf, can't you just fucking help me throw the milo that i had forgotten to drink up before going to werk. Guess what, I came back from werk, which is like pass 10hrs, and the drink is still there. wtf, waiting to see some fungus, damn fucking calculative bitch. That's how situation is when apparently you have people who are so called your parents. They enjoy seeing their kids leading a very hard life while they enjoy themselves in their own world. Be prepared for a legal suit. I had enough of that fucking sadistic setanic bitch who is sadly the person who gave birth to me.

Lesson learn, if you don't plan to have kids, then don't, because don't let them live a miserable life, like I did.

2009-03-04T22:22:00.002+08:00

Some desperate fitness organization are just getting me pissed. Its called CF. Figure it out, you should know which one. First, they are trying to suck out money from teenagers with their stupid brainwashing tactics. Bet those people dun even have a clear conscious to reap out money from people who are not even having a full time job. They are just like pests.

I cant stand living with this sadistic human beings anymore. They enjoy seeing their on children suffer while they pretty much enjoy themselves. It just makes me sick looking at their faces. I'll give it a mth, heed grandma's advice and i will just report the whole matter to a family court. I need to get out of this living hell, because since they want to keep all the cash to themselves, its about time that justice should teach them the proper way of being responsible.

No more keeping quiet, I had enough. What if, I'm out of job. Dun ever think that i will be supporting you when your old.

2009-03-03T00:17:00.000+08:00

I do desire we may be better strangers

2009-03-01T22:41:00.002+08:00

It dosen't mean that if I don't owned anything, I won't loose anything.

I will get hurt too, in both aspects.

2009-02-27T23:22:00.002+08:00

One always look at the bigger picture of life, thus, do we ever bother to look at the small little details of this bigger picture. I had my experience of life and death situation, and it makes me realise that even when your committing something so sinful, god still care for you. I can't deny that. Just sit down and ponder about it, trust me, you will feel the same. Be a sinner at this age, go ahead, but just be a responsible sinner.

Let's get it straight to some people out there. You want to create havoc at some other people party, go ahead, but just make sure you draw the line of and not get involve with illegals. You want to get wild, dun get innocent gullible parties involved, do it at your own risk. Seriously, those people are just party-poopers.

Prediction and expectation was right.

2009-02-20T01:06:00.002+08:00

If you think that I'm a sinful child, look in the mirror for urself and you would see what a sinful child plus mother is. damn it. When he was in hospital, i was surprise you were talking about responsibility as a parent, but perhaps its was just for that short period of time. Dun wait till something bad happen then you want to change yourself from a setanic bitch to some responsible old hen. It dosen't work. I taught that after he was in hospital, things would change, but apparently no, it actually got worst. It's hard for people to change, especially as they grow older.

So here comes the part. I was suppose to receive money for my monthly bus concession. 1 week of the month has passed, and so i ask my sis to ask the bitch for the money. There is no point talking to that fucking bitch face to face, coz she is just one big time sadist. The bitch evolve herself into a setan and started scrutinizing and insulting me. The most unreasonable excuse the bitch gave was I just want to lead a glamaourous life, and just want an easy life. Oh fuck, you think its glamourous to bus nowadays, its a need, not or want. We are not leaving in villages, damn cibai, dun tell me ur having brain damage. So nehmind. I kept quiet and waited till mid of the mth for the allowance. Nw it really hit the switch, i got so damn pissed with this piles of irresponsible sadistic "parents". I msg that men who is the so called dad, to ask him transfer the money for my allowance. one day later, no reply,no transfer. So i msg once gain. I kept the tone of the msg with the outmost respect. If knew what the reply was gonna be, i would have send a msg full of insult of profanities, prolly that hit u in the head and see the big picture. Sadist will always be what they are, that fucking men told me you dont ask me for money, I can't support you, go ask your brothers for the money. How in the fucking hell wont i get so pissed of and angry. You are nt giving me a single cent and u expect me to survive. Everything in this house i need to pay for myself, from clothes, lights, toiletries, food, all the basic neccessities i werk and pay for myself. If your nt going to give me a single cent, its like no different like im living alone. Fuck with that excuse that you have no money, your werking as an engineer, you only need to support to schooling kids. if you need to pay for your medication, go ast that bitch to work than. everyone grown up, there is no need for her to just linger around doing nothing. And yeah, you told me that the elder brother dun contribute to the family expenses when he's working full time. That's basically not my fucking probs, you dote on him rite last time, btw that beast is just after your money. Open your eyes.

I got three years two go, and from then on. I would definitely want to cease all ties with all this sadistic setanic humans coz its not worth anything. If you have a clear conscious, you will definitely feel that guilt. It's a living hell.

2009-02-14T00:47:00.002+08:00

Late night clinics are the best source for medication. It actually cured my gastric pains. May consider going there again next week, crowd not bad, music not bad, ambiance not bad, company was awesome. After so long not catching up on each other, finally, we met up and party hard. Hope that i wont be sick the next time round.

there are so many reason for me to love the month of march. the excitement can't be control. bought tickets for kumar concert, and that would be a date with the dearest farah. before that jason mraz concert. next class chalets. batam one day spree. its all about enjoyment. tats what you deserve after werking so hard.

when to clinic to get my medication for gastric, shocking things was the medication was big and alot. bottles wasnt like those "natural" medication bottles you see, and yeah i left the clininc carrying a big plastic bag full of medication. Gastric sucks big time, stomach looks like a hot air balloon and you just feel like as if ur pregnant, considering the weird craving for food at uncompatible timings.

2009-02-09T23:11:00.002+08:00

Find me a date.

2009-02-09T02:02:00.002+08:00

I can't believe this, I actually had a dream, being at work and facing difficult customers. Obviously work has been dominating my mind almost every other day. I won't deny that enjoy work, definitely its tiring after a day at work. The routine would be go to work, sleep, go to work, sleep and here comes the off days.

Coincidentally, woke up at noon and saw four text msgs on my phone. two from farah and two from my aunt. content of msgs were inter-related. My aunt was asking when i'm going come down to visit grandma, coz she's been asking bout me. That really hit on me. All of a sudden I just felt that I have become what i've not intended to be. All that I think is to work more and earn more. That's life here, everything lies around that term called "money". I just feel fucking shitty. Hope that grandma understands, you have pampared me much, its about time i learnt to earn my own money. Definitely need to drop by her place soon.

Why do couples always show their extra love or true love to their partners during valentine's day. Shouldn't it be applied everyday. Najib kinda of envy seeing people in love, people talking about their valentine's day preperations and celebrations, people celebrating their anniversaries, coz i'm here all alone, the single young men. After what has happen, its really hard to accept this thing call love.

2009-02-03T02:34:00.002+08:00

Breezers just hype up the mood when ur stress, tired, moody, whatever it is. Insomnia is getting critical on my side, I just can close my eyes and go to sleep, only like at 4 plus. Its now 2.35am, i need to get ready for work at 3.30am, taxi comes at 4.30. The major issue here is that I can't sleep early. I've try to go to bed at 11 jus now, but i was more of like turning right,centre,left. lying down on the bed with ur eyes wide open is not something fun, it wld just drive me nuts. I dunno whether i'm having some mental disturbance or that the habit of sleeping late is becoming a norm. I'm yawning, but i can't sleep.

Its kinda disheartening when ur fens comes to you with problems, especially relationship issues. It feels that sometimes, people just behave like moron's who just dun appreciate the other party. Hearing a situation from a fren of mine, i just feel that in relationships, u can expect the other party to be like what u expect that person to be, nobody is perfect in this world, everyone has their flaws. So if you thing that you had find the perfect one, then your life partner must be a robot.

No human beings in this world are similar fully, even twins, they do have their differences. Thus, one needs to learn how to accept for whom the other party is and not criticize them on their bads. Thats not the way, and yeah, relationships are just not about sexual desires. If constant quarrels and misunderstanding in this thing call love occurs excessively, then one should learn to part with it bit by bit, coz you would not want to regret later on, yes it may be painful at first, but it definitely would not be as painful later on, worst if you hold on to it for too long.

Chilling with the sis at the beach is something that i totally enjoyed. Topics are always interesting, tats kills the boredom, the stress and yeah sometimes the pain. Let's fly together.

Need to get ready for werk in half an hr time, oh yeah this is the first morning shift after werking for 4 mths. Let's see hws morn shift like huh. Tired eyes, tired face, tats the morning look at werk.

2009-02-02T02:07:00.002+08:00

Workaholic, yes i am, but honestly, I enjoy working, only for KingPower. It's like u don't find it dreading to go to work, except for times when im just too tired or just not in the right mood. Hols are here, bout time i pampared myself, payday and allowance, something that I am desperately looking foward. Can't wait for my hair to grow.

Picture yourself in 5 years time. Kinda a feel insecure bout this, it's like entering a state of uncertainty. The thing is, the more you grow older, the more pressure is being put upon you to make decisions.

Let's meet up soon, to that someone.

Marisher Gill is loved.

2009-01-24T01:17:00.002+08:00

That insignificant person is extinct, to me. Seriously, ur a total dissapointment, its best to keep your personality natural, but apparently, that person just can't. Case close. Gd Bye to you.

2009-01-21T18:11:00.003+08:00

For a moment, I felt that the world was empty. Why. Blank, learnt something, stay away from those ppl who are attached, its not that i have bad intentions to get in your way, for heaven sake, we are just friends, good friends to label it. Anyways, I still contemplating if i should forgo the chalet, i dun want things to turn sour for you guys.

School left with 2 more days to go, which means that the long awaited holidays will be coming. First thing first would be work, next it's about time for me to gain some weight, any drugs for that? There's three chalet to go and pay for, that really gonna hurt the wallet, and yeah mraz concert. The pay would cover the cost for all this, i guess.

2009-01-18T02:06:00.002+08:00

Remember those days where my blog were full of pictures, less words. Seems to be that I can't be bothered to upload photos onto blogger, oh well, life has not been as fun as last time. It's becoming more of like work, work, work and a small percentage of school. But looking back of my older posts, its kinda fun reading thru it all over again, looking at those pics, some sort of back to the future feeling.

Situation has changed right now, an i'm trying to adapt to it fast . keep the importance, throw the unnecessary. I really cant wait for jason mraz concert in march, im dying to hear him sing live.

now is this hair story of mine. never experienced such a haircut before. fucking condemn that butch hairstylist. i decided to go for a haircut since my hair was getting very thick, so just wanted to cut it slightly and trim it thin. Apparently, this lady didn't heed what i told her to do. She start suggesting me cutting concave or go for victoria bechkham hairtsyle. i dunno whether she was joking or that she's using me like as a tester. She's really one dumb bitch, i got so fucking pissed coz she cut my hair damn short, with some part not proportionate and its was thin as a string which make me look like i'm suffering from some disease, just being discharged. oh well. nthing can be done nw, just need to be patient for the hair to grow. pliz grow fast, cannot take it.

Listening to ABBA music at work is my new daily work dosage.

2009-01-12T13:29:00.002+08:00

I just practically hate it when people start saying this, "no matter what, he still is your father?". It's obvious, but how about the pther way round, "no matter what, he is still your son?". Life since young was like living in a torture camp where physical and mental abuse was a norm. People who do not know about the true facts of this situation might think that i'm like a setan, cut off with it. I neva felt living in a proper household since i was young. All they do is just to pull me down. They created that mindset in me since i was young to hate them through those constant abuse. Till today, that perspective is still stuck in me. Forgive and forget, is not that easy.

2009-01-05T00:09:00.002+08:00

I have been slaving myself at work, even though it damn tiring, i guess it does makes things better at the same time. There's extra money. yeah. Since it's a start of new year, I just hope things will be better off for me this time round. Looking back at 2008, if one could jus record it, bet it could be as similar as those drama series you see on tv. Just can't deny this, but one's life is really a drama, just that you don't act it out, it comes out naturally. Oh well, the drama would not end there, v.09 coming up, and i would know what to expect. enjoy that laidback life, i totally pray for it.

2008-12-30T15:17:00.002+08:00

I have not been eating well lately, things been a no way out this hols. Dad has been in hospital for almost 2 weeks, but i just don't have the heart to go down and visit him. Hopefully the two adults would change for the better after all this. Home has been absolutely dead every single time im back or awake, like there's no occupants. The prob is, i need to cook for myself, which is something i dun expertise in. Its about time i slave myself at work and earn my own bucks, lead my own life and learnt how to stand up for myself. Things just don't happen the way you want it. Life's like that. 2009. a fresh start. god bless najib.

2008-12-19T00:32:00.003+08:00

I feel lost, I just don't know what to do right now. The house feels empty, things drastically change. Kinda of helpless actually, seeing the sole breadwinner of the house, lying on that hospital bed, with so many tubes being induced into him. Yea, i noe i hated him for the way he treated me, but still in the end, we have the same blood. I just feel pity for him, seeing him in that kind of state, he had never been so sick before. Now, time is just not on my side, I'm having fever myself, working hours will be long since they are having the festive sales, and how in the blue hell am i going to find time to visit him. oh god, i just hope i can pull through this.

2008-12-11T10:33:00.002+08:00

Happy 19th birthday to my bro FARHI BIN AYUB

GOD BLESS HIM!

2008-12-07T23:55:00.001+08:00

It would definitely be a day to remember, the satisfying feeling dominated the whole mood even though the pain was a total killer. Standard chartered marathon was really something that I would always remember, it was great and the experience was worth it. I would like to congratulate my two dearest frens shamir and especially farhana, for completing this 42km marathon, totally proud of you guys. Sorry shamir, we left you behing at the start of the race, and too farhana, it was and awesome teamwork, and remember this babe, najib now eats banana. hahaha. Ok, the thing is that i really hated banana, the taste of it dosen't sync well with my tastebuds, but halfway through the marathon, I was desperate for food, like any kind. I remembered it well, the pain on my legs was really a torture and i couldn'trun that fast anymore due to the muscle strained, but when i saw the volunteer distributing banana's quite a distance away, all of a sudden, i sprinted to the table for that banana. Wonders right, it really shows my level of desperation for food. Overall, I really can't describe the feeling, when I was approaching the finishing line at city hall, the aura was superb, it feels like your're running for the olymics and everyone was like cheering for you. AWESOME rite.

To my pal shamir, your're going ns this tuesday, all the best bro, take good care of yourself, remember, think positive.

My leg hurts, the strain is a total killer.

2008-12-05T23:36:00.003+08:00

Jive fiesta for our class to day was superb. Salutes to Ms.Zawiyah.

I'm so addicted to Lush 99.5fm music, it just gives the groove I need to hype up.

Responsibility is an important criteria for one's survival in this world.

Cause if you don't take charge of ur life, complications tends to occur,

and sometimes, you get so frustrated and hard pain.

It just dosen't bring peace and tranquility to ur mind & senses.

2008-12-04T11:35:00.004+08:00

Someone please bring me to gothic theatre. I want to catch The Fray.

I'm lovin it on myspace, go get one if you guys don't have it, especially music lovers.

rated.awesome.

stay out of politics, you will be on the safe heaven

2008-12-02T23:16:00.001+08:00

It was great, awesome, fantastic, superb, because going out with the girlfie ms gill was what i needed. Let's co-habit together aite sher. love love ur company and i desparately need ur existance by my side. You read me like a poster and i read you like a magazine.

Had a get together with some of the secondary school peeps for shamir farewell dinner since our dear friend is going in for NS next tues. It was wow catcing up with the old peeps, we should do it again soon aite. Dunmanite, Home club on chirstmas nite for dunman reunion bash, let's meet up there ok people!

I want to dance with the dancing queen. ABBA is the vintage.

2008-12-01T23:51:00.003+08:00

Monday has never been fun. My mood dosen't seems to be the way i want it to be. Game over for me and you, ignorance and silence is not my game because its just not part of my social ethics.

Itinearary was not planned at all for today. It's just due to the sync and telepathy between me and the classical clown in the making, KNAA. As per normal, I was late for school, so went on to msg nabilah to ask her whereabouts, and to my surprise she was still on the bus to school. So the gonners decided to pon school. Long bus rides and we end up at west coast, had lunch there. Was my first time there, the playground there was awesome, like pasir ris park,bungee superb shiok, knaa almost flew off while taking it. The sun, ok, was ever scorching hot, cannot take it. perspiring like pig. went to catch wild girls at cathay, bimbotic movies are interesting and funny, serious, the language they use, sarcasm integrated with humour.

I'm immuned to this vicious cycle of being used, manipulated taken for granted and exposed of my feelings. God, please fast foward my life to the point where i find ultimate happiness that would last a lifetime.

2008-11-30T22:00:00.003+08:00

Chicken nuggets are much more delicious than fish nuggets.

Everyone's like falling sick, staying at home has never been fun, its like your being locked up. Nothing much can be done at home, it's either i watch tv, dvd's, surf the net, chat, lie on the bed and eat. tats it. It's pure boredom.

There's like so many things coming up in december. Marathon, shamir going ns, parties, birthdays, meet-ups, work and the list goes on.

Soon, that would be the end of 2008. 2009 then. which means to all my secondary school mates, we all will be turning 20, no more teens at the back the age, time really pass, and we are all growing up fast. How i wish we could turn back time. When i was in primary school, there was nothing much to worried about, unlike now where things are way much more different. Was browsing thru my sec school photos and i really felt that many us change, yes, looks and personality. kiddos to young matures teens. Wouldn't it be great if we can have a reunion.

Are you ready for what is to come by?

I wanna go for a picnic soon at botanical gardens

relax.recline.relish

2008-11-28T14:29:00.002+08:00

Just being oblivious to what's happening around me.
i need and antidote, for my fever, one that would make me cure faster.

I'm contemplating on whether i should go to work, my body just dosen't feel good.

2008-11-24T10:00:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so pathetic right now.
Just feel like throwing tantrums.
I just get easily agitated.
When ppl are having p.m.s
It's pisses me off
call it an irritant or a pest

November coming to an end
2009 coming up
time pass by with just a click
you dun realise it but most of the time,
we feel it, time passes by very fast
you feel stress, pressurize, hectic, pissed, downs &ups and whatever u name it.
I want to party all day, everyday, evry min, every sec.

Management Accounting sucks big time.

2008-11-21T10:49:00.002+08:00

You don't know the real me.
Wouldn't it be great if you could know your prophecy
amendment to life can be made
It would just be as divine as what you have imagine.

Critics (unknowledgeable ones), gossip bitches, 2 face fuckers are all elements of hell.
if i dun even know you, i dun need ur malicious comments, ur just a piece of disgusting shit demonic looking moron, bloody streetwalker. Stop maligning me, coz i dun need worhtless ppl in my life.

An unexamined life is not worth living

2008-11-19T13:07:00.003+08:00

RP just totally sucks. Guess what, module selection briefing is a total fuck up. Thought that after clearing the freely chosen modules for this two semester, we would only have a three day week school, but ms smarty pants who is our programme chair decided on us having a 4 days for 1st semester and 2 days on 2nd semester. Not only that, our electives have been chosen by her, which is like mandatory. WTF, why not we decrease your pay and say that it is mandatory, do you like it. The school module is already screwed up, there are so many repetition, lack of ideas to create new problems? Isn't unfair when you can't have the liberty to choose your electives, we were forced to take developing enterprise, and now m.i.c.e. She says that the reason why she chose for us this module is that it will help us get into university. Oh great, your talking like RP is the elite poly down here, like as if it would be that easy for us to get into uni. Reality check.

2008-11-18T11:23:00.003+08:00

We are born with two eyes in front because we must not always look behind, but see what lies ahead beyond ourselves!

We are born to have two ears - one left, one right so we can hear both sides, collect both the compliments and criticisms, to see which are right.

We are born with a brain concealed in a skull then no matter how poor we are, we are still rich, for no one can steal what our brain contains, packing in more jewels and rings than you can think.

We are born with two eyes, two ears, but one mouth for the mouth is a sharp weapon, it can hurt, flirt, and kill.

Talk less, listen and see more.

We are born with only one heart and it reminds us to appreciate and give love from deep within.

2008-11-17T15:35:00.002+08:00

It has been 3 and a half semester pass and i still can't get rid of my habit of being late. How now, what to do? And yea, alarm clocks, wake up calls and msgs dosen't work. I think if my house got bomb also i will still be dead sleeping. Looking for a very effective solution to cure this habit. Any suggestions? I'm craving for double mc spicy.

2008-11-17T11:02:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO DADA!

GOD BLESS YOU

(TOOK ME GREAT PAINS TO PHOTOSHOP THE PIC, COZ ITS WAS VERY DARK)

2008-11-13T23:58:00.001+08:00

How I wish i could have those energetic hyper type of strength even though im feelin tired, shag, worn out. It's just a torture to come to school and go to work when your body just feels tired, you just want to lie down on your bed and get a well deserved rest. Life isn't that simple, even though you try to make it simple, complicated things and difficulties always occurs. You try to be happy go lucky, but in the end you end up being unhappy and unlucky. At one point of time you feel that your life is so smooth, simple, contented, love, happy just like the way you wanted it to be, but the next second, things can just change drastically. Change really creates a big impact on one's life. Sometimes, it's just hard to adapt and accept. But if you don't, its just like your not facing reality, that's when you deceive the truth and when this prolongs for a period of time, things just get worst rite. Work was okay today, to keep myself awake, took some retard pics with the help of joanna. retards kills boredom.

wearing the feragamo heels is a big challenge. i almost fell twice. crazy for those ladies to wear this high heels, if were me, i bet my skinny legs can't balance my whole body weight.

sassy

the mannequin

2008-11-12T14:27:00.004+08:00

Consumer Psychology just hurts me psychologically. It's mental torture attending this module. It's a french facilitator,so sometimes one can't understand what he is talking due to his accent. The lesson is just mundane, 1st meeting, going thru last week's quiz, discussion on problem statement (during this time, we will just be stone). 2nd meeting is way much more worst, he will take like 20mins going to each group for discussion, come on, you won't need that long, it's not as if we are like having a world summit meeting right. god, please help us.My team was unlucky, we were the last group that he went to, and its was at 11.55a.m. Hey, 11.30a.m is our break time, dun cut into it. 3rd meeting, it starts at 2pm, but for the past few weeks, he will be 45mins late, but surprisingly today he was punctual. Good effort down there. But the mood for the 3rd meeting still remains the same, class feels like a graveyard, its very quiet, total silence except for the presentors. Some of us would just doze off, some doing their stuff on the lappy, some staring away blankly and a small minority listening to the presentation. Taj is sleeping beside me right now. It really shows how boring class can be. 7 more problems to go. Hanging out in the toilet is much more fun then to just sit in class and rot. I want to get new slippers, current one stinks.

2008-11-11T23:04:00.000+08:00

Did not had the apetite to eat today. Naf bought a medium dark chocolate gelato ice-cream, so i just tug in. I'm bored, tired, sleepy, fuck up, i need some substance in my life, oh yea. School has really been boring, monotonous, dry and redundant. It's like a repitition. Not interesting at all. Glad that PP and CE is settled, next up is FYP. Time goes by very fast. Hopefully next monday we can have a big get together for that someone birthday.

2008-11-10T09:44:00.002+08:00

Finally, I have formed my FYP team. Thanks Ella. CURSE THE MOTHER FUCKER WHO STOLE KNAA PHONE.

2008-11-10T09:35:00.000+08:00

When to the rural surburbs of Singapore for some photo snapping session. Tino boy brought me to this place, I didn't know that we could actually enter the railway compound. The photos taken are rated awesome. Anyone has recommendations of nice scenic locations?

2008-11-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

Southern ridges, oh yea, the best chill out place that you can't find elsewhere. Your just away from the crowd. Call it peaceful tranquility, you can just sit back, relax.recline.relish your senses. Tino boy wanted to take pics for his assignment, and yea, he has good photography skills. Kind of thing that photography is really fun, its more like appreciating the content of each pictures. Ok, I wanna get a camera soon.

2008-11-08T23:43:00.001+08:00

A hard day at work. Sales has gone down very bad, which means less customers to serve, thus there was nothing much to do. Very the boring. It's like even though there are so many customers entering the shop, only a few will buy something, the rest would just walk around like as if they are taking a stroll in the park. Fuck rite. Really can see the impact of the current recession. So here are the pictures that i took with raihah.