I always encounter people asking me why i don't like to smile. So let me be straightfoward with this. Firstly, i just have low confidence of myself. My teeth needs braces, grandma insisted on paying it for me, but i prefer saving it for myself. Tried using it for 3 mths but its fucking painful, cant eat properly, can't even talk properly. Other reasons is that i just have a low self-esteem, criticize or look down at me, I dun care. My level of self-esteem is superb low, I don't even like looking at my own reflection on the mirror, in pictures or anywhere that show my face. I dunno why. i been having this problem since i started secondary school. I dunno why i tink that i'm ugly. Seriously, i tried to overcome this problem long ago, but it seems tono avail. So to everyone who is reading this, it is one of my internal problems that i face with myself. I just wished i had a higher level os self-esteem and learn to be proud of myself.
I blog @ Friday, May 23, 2008
