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Tuesday, 8 December 2009

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. it feels like love is like a death sentence, a torment, mental suffocation, emotional breakdown. love can just bring you down, totally that you feel low of yourself. Rejection, yes it feels like a shot in the heart, it just kills ur normal self, u become a different person, not the usual self, depression state. now i feel physical torture is way better then mental torture. and mental torture is way better than emotional torture.

i did what was supposed to be done, and what most people would do. the main thing i seek is closure, and the road to it would definitely be rocky, nevertheless is about just moving on. It's not a dead end yet, treat it like a detour, the road still continues on. No regrets on that.

yet, it still hurts alot, and the worst thing is to control it within. i cant be looking like a freaking depressing unsound human being going around looking like emily, right. so yea, the next time i think my heart will open up again, guess it would be not so soon. i taught i couldn't fall in love, but i just did, it was the first, and yes, the first cut is always the deepest.

I'm trying to avoid paranoia, depression and a raging temper.

I blog @ Tuesday, December 08, 2009