I'm stuck in between. The fucking problems always goes around like a cycle and when it comes back and hit me in the brains, it really ignites my level of frustration. Its about balancing my activities. The thing is that i didnt realise that my attachment will commence this saturday, they changed the roster last minute, thus i taught i would only be werking on weekdays. Fuck, my boss called me and ask to start work this saturday, and it now clashes wit my attachment. Hit to the core. It's the most shittest feeling on earth. I would never ever want to encounter this feeling. God, please dun ever put me through this situation anymore, i really pray hard to u coz i just can't handle it. I really had enough of this dilemma, i'm not doing anything bad, i'm just wanting to be a responsible young adult. I'm werking, just wanting to be independent, going for canoe which is not engaging with negative activities, and yea, im still in poly, i'm nt some spoilt brat. Why do i deserve to go through all this shit. It's not that i am being greedy wanting to have the best of everything, its just that i want to fulfill my youth life to make it a fruitful one while being independent. If my parents were to be concern and understanding of my life, or if i was born with a silver spoon, i bet i wont be stuck in this situation.