I have not been eating well lately, things been a no way out this hols. Dad has been in hospital for almost 2 weeks, but i just don't have the heart to go down and visit him. Hopefully the two adults would change for the better after all this. Home has been absolutely dead every single time im back or awake, like there's no occupants. The prob is, i need to cook for myself, which is something i dun expertise in. Its about time i slave myself at work and earn my own bucks, lead my own life and learnt how to stand up for myself. Things just don't happen the way you want it. Life's like that. 2009. a fresh start. god bless najib.
I feel lost, I just don't know what to do right now. The house feels empty, things drastically change. Kinda of helpless actually, seeing the sole breadwinner of the house, lying on that hospital bed, with so many tubes being induced into him. Yea, i noe i hated him for the way he treated me, but still in the end, we have the same blood. I just feel pity for him, seeing him in that kind of state, he had never been so sick before. Now, time is just not on my side, I'm having fever myself, working hours will be long since they are having the festive sales, and how in the blue hell am i going to find time to visit him. oh god, i just hope i can pull through this.
It would definitely be a day to remember, the satisfying feeling dominated the whole mood even though the pain was a total killer. Standard chartered marathon was really something that I would always remember, it was great and the experience was worth it. I would like to congratulate my two dearest frens shamir and especially farhana, for completing this 42km marathon, totally proud of you guys. Sorry shamir, we left you behing at the start of the race, and too farhana, it was and awesome teamwork, and remember this babe, najib now eats banana. hahaha. Ok, the thing is that i really hated banana, the taste of it dosen't sync well with my tastebuds, but halfway through the marathon, I was desperate for food, like any kind. I remembered it well, the pain on my legs was really a torture and i couldn'trun that fast anymore due to the muscle strained, but when i saw the volunteer distributing banana's quite a distance away, all of a sudden, i sprinted to the table for that banana. Wonders right, it really shows my level of desperation for food. Overall, I really can't describe the feeling, when I was approaching the finishing line at city hall, the aura was superb, it feels like your're running for the olymics and everyone was like cheering for you. AWESOME rite.
It was great, awesome, fantastic, superb, because going out with the girlfie ms gill was what i needed. Let's co-habit together aite sher. love love ur company and i desparately need ur existance by my side. You read me like a poster and i read you like a magazine.
