Monday, 15 June 2009
Been feeling abnormal lately. Don't know whether it is just the time of the month that this feeling starts to just pop out or that i just get easily paranoid. I would just go on a rage at home especially hearing my mom talking, the anger in me just erupts all of a sudden, grasp my hand tight and the feeling of hitting her and ask her to shut up. yea thats the thing, i dunno why i seem to get so tense easily. All of a sudden i feel like shunning away from everyone, is just this out of the blue feeling, its weird seriously. then comes the nights where i will keep on waking up in the middle of my sleep, many times, and i also dunno why. i jus wake up all of a sudden, switch on the light for a few mins and then switch it off and go to bed. usually repeated twice or if im lucky it only happen once. Just a few days back, i dreamt of me dying, left with only a week to live, hopefully its just a dream coz a day later, grandma called me and she was so nice to ask me come over her place as she had cooked for me. Yea, was treated like a prince there, food served with my favourites drinks. i was totally delighted but it make me feel that there was something wrong, prolly im just paranoid. Hopefully im not suffering from any mental distress, but it seems to me that its more like it. Am i just thinking too much, i can't deny that my current state of life is pack with problems that seems to process like a vicious cycle. But to think of it, everyone has problems, its a norm, im just trying to handle mine privately. I'm lost and the feeling right now is like wtf. I need a cure for all this.
I blog @ Monday, June 15, 2009
